It seems that many people I know can't tell the difference between being alone and being lonely. I love being alone. I enjoy my company. My thoughts entertain me. I don't feel lonely at all. But it's as if people cannot believe such a thing possible and they think that someone like me is a.) hiding their feelings or putting on a brave face or whatever so nobody feels sorry for them, or 2.) claiming an anti-social stance in order to seem cool or interesting or mysterious or some other stupid something.
I think that people who can't understand the simple pleasure of being alone are people who don't enjoy being by themselves. I often have friends or family who try to bond with me by saying, "Oh, I know how you feel. I really like my alone-time. It's great to get away from people!" The friends and family members who say this more than likely are either in a relationship, living with a roommate or other relative, or they have children. So, no. I don't think they get it. Wanting to be alone only because you are constantly surrounded by people is not the same. These folks just want a break; I want the lifestyle.
My dad described me once as a social loner. I love my friends and love spending time with them. But at the end of the day, I have to be by myself. I have to give the old Irish goodbye and shuffle off somewhere to pick my own brain. The only way I can keep from hating everyone I know is to drastically limit the amount of face-time I have with them.
It's weird. The weirdest thing is when I meet someone who I want to see all the time. Talk about confusion...
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